Day 80: How to Not Be Happy II

Feeling somewhat wired
It's 2:18 AM
Outside temperature is a shockin' 38' Fahrenheit
You can see your own breath! In April!!
Sometimes it even snows! WTF!

Every now and then, I see particular people who are emotionally pressed mainly because of their abstract, unfulfilled expectations. And this most usually comes fully bubble wrapped in issues and matters that have to do with "unsatisfactory" test scores and grade point averages, financial roadblocks, uncertainty in their immediate future, career problems, life problems, etc etc. You think your problems are so important!

Lighten up for real. Damn.

My cousin in Korea, 27, just graduated from college with a degree in mathematics. He doesn't know what to really do with his life, because since high school, he had to take care of his grandmother, currently 97 years old, all the while having a teaching job at a private math prep institution getting paid minimum, tutoring students, giving a regular allowance to his grandmother and parents (his father is a taxi driver in Seoul), applying for a real job after graduation, and taking two years off his miserable life for mandatory military service.

And you complain and rant about the possibility of not getting into medical school, law school, some-really-important school, and whatnot. And you rave and grumble about not getting what you want, like that snazzy iPod or some shiny new laptop. Go die. He can't really afford to get a new phone or upgrade his dying 7-year old Windows 98.

His TOEFL and TOEIC scores aren't that great enough to even attract the slightest attention from company employers that are completely unwilling to hire anyone who isn't the best of the best from the beginning anyway in this Godforsaken time of global economic catastrophe.

And you complain and rant about not getting a super high wage job in the near future, like after going to med school, law school, or that oh-so-important school somewhere in the US of A. For your gramma's sake, some people can't even get a damn job.

So what is he doing now? Still working. Still hanging in there with his other friends from his college that are pretty much going through the same thing, and of course, even worse circumstances. Still breathing. Still taking care of his 97 year old grandmother. He gave up looking for a job, and now he is looking to go into grad school, because nobody is wanting to hire him anyway. All he hopes to do is land a job after grad school, work, get married, have kids, and die, hopefully happily. Oh, if you were in his shoes, wouldn't you want your grandmother to pass away already? You've been taking care of her since 10 years ago...

If this made you feel better, than you should go do something nasty to yourself, like get yourself run over by a tractor. Afterwards, I recommend you to reevaluate your life, and reevaluate your shitty attitude and shitty outlook towards life. Maybe then, just MAYBE, your life won't seem really shitty anymore.

And if you feel somewhat down, somewhat bad, somewhat depressed again because your life doesn't seem so good, then go Google pictures of starving, malnourished, impoverished human beings in Africa and other parts of the world, like this kid in the picture here. You just don't feel sympathetic towards them because they don't look like real people to you. You just don't realize that they are damned real people, and you damned probably never will.


Lighten up for real, and change your attitudes. Get real. Grow up. Be down to earth. Humble yourself.

If you feel like either you've been wrongly victimized or I've been wrongly accusing people, try actually reading what I'm trying to get across this time, or go on to do some more self-exploration.